Being SELFish can be a good thing!

WE don't take enough time to ALLOW ourSELF to say want we want or how we really feel.
It's so important to BE who we are.

A selfish thought? I don't know if I have EVER had one. To put mySELF before another. NO WAY.....so what happens is I have lived THIS life serving all those around me. WHO was SERVING ME? ................. { }................... Interesting how it works.

As strange as it feels at times.......Patricia is on the TOP of the list. I can no longer do what "others think" I should. I will not longer do something because it's expected of me. I will be true to mySELF listening to MY intuition.

With that said.... I had to tell Danielle that she would have to find different living situations for herself & Tristan. As MUCH as I LOVE them both.......I have just spent 30 years raising a family & it's time for ME to explore ME.
Having them here would have been "safe". It would have filled my home with others to "take care of". Taking the FOCUS back off ME.
What is incredible was that she took it so gracefully. That she really understood & ended the conversation with, "Coming here was SAFE for me. I've always had someone take care of me & now it's time for me to take care of Tristan & myself."
With tears in my eyes.......I am so grateful that it is always my intention to send love to those around me & this was just an example of how when you trust yourself & can HONEST with yourself...........it all falls beautifully into place.

The same thing happened with the woman I was doing the marketing for. I was just so overwhelmed with everything so I emailed & told her. I was feeling like I had dropped the ball & feeling guilty. HER response was, "Change brings about emotions we never knew we had. Take care of YOU & don't worry about my stuff." How blessed AM I?

Glenn....someday when you are reading this.......I want you to know that everyday I surround you with unconditional love. That I support every decision that you are making because I KNOW that everything you are doing you are doing for every one's highest & best good. My joy would be that you have included yourself on that list. My heart into yours........

I am SLOWLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYY working on my "Happy Space".......ahhhhh it's been a VERY long time since I even had the desire to be creative & I can FEEL the mojo working up inside of me. MY freedom of expression not only comes through my words but in my ART.

With the meditation music playing in the background, love surrounding me, feeling peaceful & joyful today......... In this moment.......I blessed myself & you.......for all we have is NOW. Take a deep breath & FEEL my love for YOU.......YOU deserve it!!!

Please, don't wait for some future event to happen. Don't wait until you lose the weight or obtain some object. Don't wait to release the anger you feel towards your partner, family member, coworker or friend. THEY have no CONTROL of how YOU feel. It's our responsibility to FEEL as we choose. RIGHT NOW..........choose JOY.......because it's just FEELS good!

I love YOU
Patricia