Bittersweet....

WOW.......
There is a joy & sadness that comes today as the future ex-husband removes his belongings from our home.
Interesting how when I saw him driving down the road there was such an excitement & joy. When I walked into the house & started to pack up some sheets & towels my chest started to tighten & I was in a full blown panic attack!

I've been waiting for this moment to come for months & there's an excitement & fear that over comes me. I just am allowing whatever I am feeling even though some emotions just don't "feel" good.
We have to feel it ALL. It lets us know we HAVE feelings.
Sometimes we build up walls in order not to feel pain BUT then we don't allow ourselves to feel LOVE either. We have to be open to life. To trust it.
They are only feelings with memories of the past attached.
We must release them in order to bring in the NEW feelings of a happy & loving NOW.

I'm taking a couple days off of work to feel & release ALL the garbage that is coming during this transition.

I know that who ever is reading this is sending their love.
I appreciate it.
Thank you!