Putting myself OUT THERE....

Taking control of MY LIFE. Not be be controlling but to KNOW what "feels good" & what doesn't.

When I'm pushing so hard toward something & there is resistance it is time to change direction to "feel better".

Since at this moment I am financially, emotionally & spiritually secure, what I want is to sit across from a man. Him enjoying my company & me enjoying his. So, on to Match.com....
I figure that I'll just meet someone for coffee & then decide if I would like to have dinner with them.

*note to self* ask MORE questions BEFORE meeting for coffee. LOL

My first coffee meet had me across the table from a guy who was in an open marriage. YOU just have to laugh @ me. My innocence is still apparent & you know what, I LIKE that part of me!
What I learned about ME during the conversation was that I know so LITTLE about me.
That I haven't given much thought to the things I enjoy in order to talk about them!
So, I'm going to start a list!

When we are ALONE with no one reflecting back or asking questions, we sound good to ourSELF. Amazing the things you find out when asked by a stranger.
I honestly feel like a child. Like LIFE is just appearing before me & I can explore anything & everything that I want. It's scary & exciting.
I've been raising a family since I was 17 & I'm now 48. It's been a beautiful journey at times, a tumultuous journey at times BUT through it all was a knowing that all is well.

Saturday is the "start" of the move out date but he assures me that he will be moved OUT by next Friday!!!

Oh & I got this feeling that I'm going to be leaving this job sooner then I expected. LIFE is in control now & I'm just enjoying the ride.

I LOVE YOU ALL!
Patricia