I met "HIM"......

We have been having phone problems at work for MONTHS! There has been this one Verizon guy helping to resolve the issue for way before I started working. When he would come in some of the girls in the office would swoon.

One day I said, “Well, what’s his status? If you are interested you should know.” No one knew SO me being the shy, quiet type said, “I’ll ask him.”

The next time he came in I said, “Hey Glenn, what’s your status? You know…married, single, significant other?”

He said, “There’s a potential.” I looked puzzled & he said, “Well, we’ve been out on 3 dates & we’ll see where it goes.” I said, “OK, keep us informed inquiring minds want to know.” LOL

He comes in one day & starts talking about how “they” went to a Kentucky Derby party & the horse she had picked had unfortunately died. He says, “I have compassion for an animal that died but SHE totally freaked out. Basically, started to beat me up. Blah, blah, blah”

Our conversations were VERY innocent. I thought he was a nice guy & although I found him attractive, there was another girl in the office that liked him & I am still married with my husband living in the house. Definitely NOT in the market. LOL

One day my reps started saying stuff like “Trish, the Verizon guy is here.” “Trish, he just pulled into the parking lot.” One of the graphic designers came to my desk & said, “Trish, can you please ask your Verizon boyfriend to FIX the phones.” The owner says, “Glenn, likes someone here. There’s no reason for him to just stop by like this.” I totally blew them off saying, “Glenn, is just a nice guy & he TALKS way too much for me. I’m getting rid of one that I can’t have a moment of silence with. “ LOL

Memorial day weekend (Friday) he comes in & I ask what his plans are. He doesn’t have any & asks me. I don’t have any. SMALL TALK. He’s workin’ on something & I say, “Hey Glenn, what happened to Kentucky Derby date?” He says, “OH that was over that day. I am officially on the market.”When he leaves the owner says to the other manager. “Glenn likes Trish.” She tells me & I’m like. “Would YOU people stop! Glenn is just a nice guy who likes to talk.” I came home that night & started to replay the events in my head. What if “God/Life” was telling me something? I had his number & tormented myself for 3 hours with “should I or shouldn’t I”. I’m into making new friends. What the heck, I’ll have a new friend.

I called & left a message on his work phone not knowing if he checked it or not to meet for lunch the next day. He called back 10 minutes later. We chatted for about an hour & then decided to meet for lunch. We met at noon…..at 5 my Mom called. She lost her glasses & needed me to help her find them. He said, “I was just going to ask you to dinner.” “Let me see what Mom needs & I’d love to go.”Dinner ended at midnight. The next day we went to a small BBQ. We left @ 8 & talked in the car until 2am. We’ve had dinner & met for coffee, always for hours but it still “platonic”. Since I’m still in my situation there is a small guard up between us.

He has "stuff" going on in his life. I know, I know, I read "He's just not that into you" & I am aware but what if, what if, he really doesn't want to ADD a partner during a crazy time.

What if he KNOWS what it takes to make a relationship work & just doesn't want it to start out on the "wrong foot"?

Guys….It’s “HIM”. I have NEVER been so certain about anything in my life. He deserves ME & I deserve HIM. I’m his “HER”.I KNOW it sounds CRAZY!!!

I am ME around him. I see his soul. We think alike. That’s scary. LOL

The tricky part....FREE WILL. Damn it! LOL

It matters NOT what I KNOW but will HE KNOW?

I know that my joy, my happiness doesn't depend upon whether or not he chooses me for I KNOW that AT THIS MOMENT it's just as it should be.

Ohhhhhh.....my mind starts playing the "what if" scenarios of the future but I just bring it back to my NOW. Right now, I can just enjoy the feelings. They are MINE & we are suppose to enjoy them.

I'm not going to allow myself to play the "Well, if he doesn't like me then I'll just not like him" game. So what, if he doesn't choose ME. Does that make HIM any less likable? NO

If he doesn't "choose ME" does that make ME any less likable? NO!


So WHAT if he doesn't call when I THINK he should. Do I want to control another's actions to fit into MY way or do I except another for WHO THEY ARE?
He's been honest. He's NOT ready right NOW but it doesn't stop him from stopping into work. hmmmm

As soon as my husband moves out I'll put myself on Match.com

I'll put myself out there because I KNOW that LIFE just doesn't tease & torment us with things that we can not have. It brings to us everything we need at every moment.

My daughter said, "Mom, You should just DO YOU for now."

I AM doing ME. I'm going to do exactly what I FEEL like doing without FEAR or REGRET.

During this process I will not suppress myself into another's concepts of HOW I should be doing anything. I've spent way too much of my life pleasing others. It's now time to please me.

I can't control what others think & feel. I can only be true to ME.

My heart is open. I am ready to receive the gifts that LIFE is presenting to me. I will allow whatever into my life because I TRUST LIFE & I NOW, trust mySELF.

It's an amazing feeling to know that EVERYTHING is in Divine Crazy Order. :)